In addition to my weight loss blog I would like to introduce my family blog, this will be mostly about my daily life stuff… I like this blog here to be more about my health and fitness so I wanted them a bit separate. Anyways, I just started it but if you like would love my readers who are interested to give it a look and check it out too 🙂 I would love to see you there!
First, I was going to send my older kids with their dad BUT the girls wanted to be with me so I thought they would be good help for M for I had to bring the baby.
WRONG, WRONG, WAS I WRONG…. The older ones were worse than the baby I swear….
It began with me getting their 30 minutes early. For most doctors that is a great but when you are on this community plan not so much they still go more so in order of your appointment so that sucked. Teach me to be early again!
Did my blood work, Chased M around the waiting room (whom she conned people for food lil stinker) talked to a few mom’s with cute babies as well.
Finally got called back and a wonderful thing happened. Ya know you always dread those doctor scales, not even the digital ones but the old school bar ones where they slide the dial? You know the ones!
Well that scale had me almost 3lbs LIGHTER then mine! (I later went home recalibrated mine and it was true! wooot wooot!)
I will still save my weigh in for Wednesday but as long as I stay on point the rest of this week it will be an awesome weigh in!
Got into our room where the real fun began. M didn’t want to be in her stroller, my oldest was at the scale that was in the room (another scale) constantly weighing herself because she thought that was fun (girl glad you like a scale now lol), and then trying to figure how to check her height with the tool attached.
She then made balloons out of gloves, told me how bored she was, at least her sister (the second oldest) was good. Note to self, bring Katie to appointments but NOT Amy!
Then doc comes in and she wants to still keep playing around in this tiny room….. I thought I was going to go nuts on her! I was a bit embarrassed but the doctor didn’t seem to mind.
So basically, the Hematologist said he doesn’t believe my clots in my lungs were caused by my blood disorder. This did kind of shock me.
He said the reason why he doesn’t think Factor V is the cause is because apparently it’s rare to actually form a blood clot with it with out other factors.
He also doesn’t think the superficial clot was a factor too. Interesting. Of course he said it could all be debated.
He wants to keep me on blood thinners until told otherwise. He did say that my thyroid is concerning, he was concerned about the edema issue (and said he couldn’t believe the other docs haven’t been as concerned).
He told me to press the issue and make sure it gets resolved. He said he would like me to drop down to about 30% body fat. Which he said drops my chances of getting another PE.
Since Derrick and I have talked about having MAYBE in the future (FAR FUTURE) another baby he said that if I get the body percent down they may try me off of the blood thinners however, if I get another clot and I am for sure a lifer and of course if any of my blood work shows anything else concerning.
He did say first things first fix thyroid. If the edema and thyroid continue to be a problem and I can’t lose weight he said needs to be addressed, but the good news is I AM losing so hopefully that will get better. He said as I lose the edema should improve.
He doesn’t feel my weight persay caused the clot he just said it was an added risk factor he would like to eliminate. He was very nice and respectful. He believes most of the gain is from the thyroid but again concerned about the whole fluid issue and was a bit uneasy that the hospital couldn’t explain it.
But like he said the whole taking me off is if I lose the weight is more so for the baby thing, he said having a baby increases my risk for a clot when you add in the weight on top of that it makes it unsafe (I knew that though) I told him the criteria we had for me to have another baby and he agreed with it. (even though I could tell he thought I was totally nuts for wanting to have 5 kids) lol It’s okay most don’t understand it. Hahaha.
But besides that all is well I guess, I go back in 6 months. So not much info, don’t really know why the clot started right now, but the main thing is I am on the treatment for it. He said for the fact I am improving so well that’s a good sign (walking well and such). He just fears more clots so the getting of the thinners is iffy and only time will tell.
I will say it was nice he at least listened…. I wish my other doctor did. Was a little annoyed he wanted to put the swelling on the pregnancy but as I told him that the swelling started BEFORE the pregnancy all the pregnancy did was make it worse but wasn’t the cause!
I don’t know why this is hard for doctors to believe, I guess the only one that would be the one who saw me swelling before I even got prego! ugh.
I still pin point all these issues started after I started taking birth control pills before conceiving M.
I know they say if the pills were the factor that the problem would have went away by now just find it funny my ONLY health issue was just thyroid and of course I get I always had the blood disorder. But I swear those pills triggered this crap!
Mentioning the other doctor…. So I had put in a request to move facilities TWO months ago. I was told I should get an appointment 4-6 weeks…. Well TWO months go by and NO appointment.
So I called them and they were like uh, it’s a 6 MONTH wait! Wait? What? She said it was for all of the clinics, I was like uh no because the other clinic I got in faster, SO I called the other clinic she got me in for July 19th to retest the thyroid.
I am not sure if it’s the same doctor but if it is they said after that appointment I can just request a new one when I schedule my next appointment. So yay on that! I really really really don’t like that doctor! Hopefully my appointment with that clinic will be a more positive one!
And that’s my update! I am going to see family today for a cook out and swimming so we are all excited. I hope everyone has a great weekend.
Raise your hand if you have ever been given unsolicited advice? Anyone? Now raise your hand if you have had “professionals” or people of “experience” tell you what is right and wrong for YOU? Anyone else?
What is it with people becoming all-knowing? Okay, so yeah at times I am guilty of this too… I think we all are. We get passionate about something and we forget that sometimes not everyone fits in the tiny little mold we have created. I really have been striving to learn to LISTEN! I am a natural talker so even at the age of 30 I have to tell myself to shut up and LISTEN. I don’t get why we have become accustom to feel we have the answers for everyone? That just because we have done something similar, or because it’s what we feel we know that we can’t ever be wrong?
I don’t claim to know it all…. While on this journey I know that apart of me started to doubt myself! See, I had ONE good doctor who believed there was some kind of issues that was causing my weight to just go nuts. When we found my thyroid was off we thought, bingo that’s it. Then I still wasn’t losing, so she said go low carb, but that was causing a small amount of weight loss, then all the sudden I had this pain in my leg and low and behold a clot! I had never experience clots before. I didn’t know about blood disorders, PE’s (Pulmonary embolism) were some fancy term I would hear on a show like Grey’s anatomy. It wasn’t something “I” would have! Nor for sure something “I” would almost die from!
While, my clotting disorder “managed” is not so threatening its when it’s not managed when it is. Because we didn’t know about it, I was doing things like smoking, and taking birth control pills. These things now increased my likely hood of having a clot. Then I quit smoking, quit bc and got pregnant. I ate well in the pregnancy even managed to not gain much at all in fact I only gained baby and fluid weight. After birth it went down hill again. You can read the full story here if you like.. Birth Story
Since then everything has been a struggle. My thyroid levels went crazy, I got clots in my lungs, my weight started going nuts…. Apart of me REALLY wanted to believe that maybe I just wasn’t eating well… So I cut a ton of things out of my diet, counted calories, started exercising, then exercising more, and cut more things to only lose a little. I felt defeated. I knew that there was more to my weigh gain then JUST food but apart of me just wanted to believe I was WRONG!
As much as I LOVE to be right , this time I didn’t! Changing your diet is easy, I mean it takes commitment and forcing your self to just not do xy and z. BUT it’s doable if you really want to. But things like retaining fluid, and finding that your valves are weak to the point your blood just doesn’t flow the way it should through both your legs, is a bit discouraging. What’s more so discouraging is when people don’t believe you and try to sway you to believe that all YOU know to be true is wrong… As if they have lived in this body for 30 years.
Who is anyone to claim to be an expert of MY body! Experts and Experienced people all the time feel a need to tell others everything they are doing wrong and when the problem isn’t what is what was “normal” then it must not be right? Why? I mean why is it so hard to believe that maybe it’s YOU that is wrong? I will accept my faults. It’s why I have done all I have done. When I was challenged maybe it’s this, I did what I was told and what? It didn’t work! So then what? But all the while I am saying what about this? And I am ignored. Until something horribly goes wrong and THEN you agree? Why does things have to go to the extreme for us to listen?
I am a mom of four children, I have girls and boys, I have been married once, divorced, engaged, in an interracial relationship, had vaginal births, c-sections, bottle fed, breastfed, and so much more. While I may feel I know some things, I may feel experienced in others one things I am learning is I still don’t know. I only know of what I personally have went through and the knowledge that I have gained but it doesn’t mean in that same breath that I am now an expert OR that if someone has a different experience that it’s just not possible the cause was from the same source!
I have learned just as quickly as you think you know something you can be just as quickly proven wrong! I thought birth was simple, I thought because I had three babies I would never need a c-section, I was wrong! I thought that everything was just calories in vs calories out, I was wrong…. I thought that boys were easier, and found that sometimes they can be just as dramatic as girls, lol I thought that having my last baby would ruin everything when in fact she has brought so much good to everything that I just couldn’t imagine. I thought I knew everything I could about infants and I still ask questions 4 kids later…. Just because you THINK you know things don’t put everyone and everything in YOUR box.
Instead next time of trying to prove someone wrong, maybe just Listen to them instead and who knows you might actually learn something…. Things are not always black and white. If we take a moment to step outside of our own bubbles sometimes you find there is just a whole world of things we don’t “really know”.
Ya know, when I first started walking I had in my mind that people would be pointing and laughing thinking “look at that fat girl go”. Funny how the mind always seems to go to the negative. But honestly, this hasn’t been my experience at all. Infact, most have been quiet nice! I get several waves and even on Monday on the way to a call the firemen even waved. While I am sure having my cute little tag along Makayla with me helps I can’t help but think instead that they are saying “you go girl!” or at least they do in my head. It’s quiet refreshing. Derrick and I even motivated a friend to get on her treadmill yesterday. It’s amazing at who you touch without knowing it.
Sometimes I don’t expect people to really listen to me. As a natural talker I say all the time that I talk to talk. Even at 30 yrs old I am still surprised that people actually listen to what I say. I don’t know why this shocks me, I guess hearing all your life how I talk to too much I assume others just tune me out. I mean my nick name growing up was motor mouth! Lovely huh? Either way….. I am also in so much joy this morning because my son told me he would like to start jogging with Derrick in the afternoons. The girls have been on board but him not so much.
However, the past couple months he has been slimming down (he is 8 btw) he isn’t “fat” just has a little fluff. We have been eating probably the healthiest we have ever eaten and it’s showing in all my kids. They are running, looking fit. It’s amazing, and to hear him say I want to jog too made me proud. I don’t want my children’s lives to revolve around weight, in fact when he gets on my scale I tell him all the time that number will change as he is growing boy and it’s all about us getting healthy.
I have no doubt in my mind that this change is for the better of this entire family! Derrick is losing weight quiet well, since we lowered our carb intake to about half (he does about 130 grams a day) he is now down 21 pounds. I have found that I have to keep my carb intake at under 100 and I lose. I was so disappointed yesterday when I saw the scale didn’t really budge. I mean how do you go from not walking to walking 5 miles a day, eating a good cal intake and still not really lose AND weigh what I weigh. I would expect that maybe in a smaller person but not a person of my size. So I buckled down and lowered those carbs, given that it’s believed I could have insulin issues this is important, and sure enough this morning the scale was back down. I won’t know for a 100% sure until next week but I think I am finally on to something here and figured the magic to my personal weight loss despite my health issues.
I also want to say since lowering my carbs my swelling has gone down dramatically. I am amazed at my feet, I see bone again! I have done everything doctors have told me and nada, nothing worked other than lasiks. Well this does! I still eat the same amount of calories just I eat less carbs and that’s it. Who would have known? Of course we all know how sugars can trigger things in your body I guess apart of me didn’t believe that it could affect my body so much. See because everyone is different. Infact, in my research I found that those who are not insulin resistant need lower calories and high carbs in a study that was done among a group of people. Those who were insulin resistant had a hard time losing with low cal/high carb but lost fine with lower carb despite the calories (they kept them under 2k though). So it was an interesting read. I guess my body just holds on to sugar like glue and says no it’s mine and I’m not letting it go! lol.
Either way we will as I said know for sure if this is the formula for me. In about 8 weeks I should have a check up on my blood work and we will see how that’s doing. Oh and since the lower carb my blood pressure is even more awesome. Go figure. 🙂
I got up this morning and did NOT want to look at the scale… Why you ask? I mean it’s not like I have eaten bad in fact I have probably ate too little. I can tell my new thyroid meds (Yep finally got the new script and YEP it was still off!) is starting to regulate because I don’t get as hungry. Although, that doesn’t necessarily equal a loss. It’s very strange. I typically weigh daily. As I have mentioned before I normally do this because of the swelling issues I am not to gain more than 3lbs in two days. The past several months that hasn’t been an issue as much but now it’s just a routine.
One of the bad things about weighing daily is you put yourself up for being upset. See weight naturally fluctuates. I think this is the big reason why they say to weigh once a week. That way you don’t find yourself discouraged if you gained a lb or so in a day. It’s only natural to feel this way. I woke up this morning and thought no, I am not going to weigh in. I knew that if that number was higher than 289 I would cry.
I step on the scale and it’s over 289! What? So I do my normal weigh three times because I swear my damn scale is retarded. And the next two reads were 289. No I didn’t stand on one foot or hold the door. Yes, I know all the tricks we do to make the scale lighter, I have done them we all have but it defeats the purpose. You must accept what you weigh, fudging the number does you no service! However, in that moment I wanted to just ditch the scale and say F it….
I am not saying F it as in I will just eat bad oh no I am in this journey to find what ever the heck is wrong with me. It’s just annoying. I want to see those numbers continuously go down NOT up or the same. It’s annoying when you bust your butt and you don’t *see* results. UGH.
Tomorrow is my official weigh in hopefully, today was just some water weight from all the walking I did yesterday? Until then.