One of the hardest things for me to learn is patience. I am only a patient person to an extent and then it’s all out the window once that line has been drawn. I have found that I have different levels of patience. Like for my kids, my patience is semi high. For grown adults? Not so much!
For weight loss…. Not at all! It’s a bit of a struggle to go through this process because the end scheme of things you want results and sadly we want them now. Just a few days in and I have already found myself seeking some sort of result. JUST DAYS IN. It’s like seriously mind give yourself a break.
I logically know that I won’t really see any results just yet. And honestly, I shouldn’t expect to. I am just so ready to really be smaller. I feel trapped. And I know I have said that over and over again but it’s true. It’s how I feel! I have a lot of pinned up fear in this process.
It’s hard for me to go a 100% because I am afraid to get 0% in return like before. It’s a hard pill to swallow. With my swelling going up and down at times I never know what is really a true pound loss of fat. I mean I know many people say a lb is a lb but it really isn’t. A pound of water isn’t the same as a pound of fat.
As someone who retains water often and easily losing a pound of water is no victory because it at this time is for sure to come back. Trying to break through this hurdle has been a very hard one. But I am going to try. I have a doctor who actually IS behind me in this. Willing to work with me and find what’s wrong. All I have to do is try.
I just hope it’s not another failed attempt. I know that usually with failure we find victory just these days it’s not seeming all so possible. But to do this I still have to believe it is. Sigh…. Like everything, I will take it a day at a time and see where I end up. Hopefully on the otherside of smaller jeans!