I decided this morning I am going to have to lay off all my energy to weight loss. What I will continue to focus on is learning how to eat better and continuing my work outs. I will have to just focus on the health aspect of this all right now not the weight loss until I get medical help with this all.
I have tried many avenues and non of this makes sense. Weeks like this week proves that to me. I got annoyed on Monday ate bad well it didn’t stop there, I continued making bad choices and what did I do? I lost weight!
Makes ZERO sense then again the gain didn’t make much sense either. I figure I can’t focus on any type of numbers. I just have to focus on making good choices and going with the flow of things for now. Which I won’t lie this is hard to do because I want results. I want weight loss!
But I have been at this now for a while, trying many things that have been asked of me and yet I stay weight wise in the same place. I know as we age things get harder but after reading back just a couple of years ago to my efforts of just cutting things from my diet and losing weight I know something is just not right here.
I have known it since the beginning. I thinking maybe I’m wrong! Maybe my eating is off, maybe I”m not exercising enough, getting enough sleep, I could be stressed. I think of all the things they tell you and that you hear and yet here I am still in the same place.
I do believe there is an answer here. I also believe that I will find it. I just hope once we do I will finally be able to get out of this body I feel so trapped in.
I will still be here because I need you guys. I just don’t want things right now to be about the numbers. I don’t want to freak out over every calorie or the numbers on the scale. I am going to keep the focus on good choices and leave it at that.