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Better Day

27 Friday Sep 2013

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I am glad to say today is a MUCH better day.  Not sure what changed but I didn’t feel all crappy and sleepy.  And I am down 5lbs since Monday.  Granted I am still up 1 lb from 2 weeks ago but that’s not the point.

Usually with PMS I hold that water weight until AF comes (which is still a few days away) so the fact I am losing PMS weight is good.  Not sure if I will lose anything once AF hits but I’m not concerned about that.

Just now focusing on staying good and continuing on….. Just waiting for the week after AF where I can kill it again lol.  So what if I have one week a month I can lose weight.  One way or another I AM getting this weight off!

 

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So weak…

26 Thursday Sep 2013

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bootcamp, fitness, gym, Lose Weight, Weight loss

I don’t know what’s going on this week but I feel extremely weak!  I have sucked in bootcamp and while I am still pushing myself I just feel like I suck!  On top of that the trainer everyone seems to like seems he might of left the gym.

He came in today to have a little chit chat about his other job (which I knew he had another job) but all the sudden on his partner is teaching which sucks because now the morale in the class feels off and down.

I don’t know how it is one person can make such a difference but they do.  Of course D doesn’t fully get it but it has effected me this week.  I just am not feeling class this week which bites because I love bootcamp even when I don’t love it. lol

Weight has been slowly going down.  Monday AF should arrive and I *should* go back down to what I was a few weeks ago.  We shall see if I lose more the following week.  If so my theory just might work out.  Only time will tell.

So, while I was in class I had an emotional moment.  It kind of reminded me of when you are at church and you just start crying and you don’t really know why exactly?

Today in class everything about my body bothered me.  My shirt wasn’t long enough, my stomach kept showing, my hair was blah, everything was dissatisfaction.

There are mirrors all in the room and for the most part I refuse to look at them.  I can’t stand watching myself work out.  I really had a I hate my body feeling today.  It was a bit overwhelming and I got a bit teary eyed while doing abs today.

I am just so tired of this journey.  Not in the way where I want to give up just tired.

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Crappy Food Weekend

24 Tuesday Sep 2013

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bootcamp, fat girl, fitness, gym, healthy, Lose Weight, myfitnesspal, Weight loss, work out

So this weekend was my son’s birthday and a good one at that which also included,  lots of good food and most were not good calorie wise.  I don’t want to call these foods “bad” because I am trying to retrain myself on that food isn’t “bad” just some foods have more nutritional value than others and I need to focus more on those.

Of course, this weekend I did not eat well and of course fluid retention was to follow.  Blah, you always have that moment after eating certain foods of “why did I eat all that?  I feel gross” but you never say that with healthier food.

So yesterday was bootcamp day and I can tell you something, going to bootcamp after a weekend of not so good for you foods makes your work out so.much.harder!

My performance totally was not up to par to what it normally is.  BUT I still had a good workout and totally sore today.  They changed yesterday up!  It’s normally cardio day and it was strength day instead.

They told us they might do this since it was obvious people knew what days to go (many don’t like strength days) but I LOVE LOVE LOVE strength days!  I like the idea of being able to do things that make me feel stronger!

Cardio just makes me wanna die lol

Anyways, so we did our gym thing and then we went to the phone store for me to get a new phone.  Mine is old, not cool lol and won’t hold a charge now for nothing.  It was time to upgrade.

I have never had a smartphone for the longest time they were so expensive and the plans were so expensive I couldn’t justify them.  But since I use Metro I was able to keep my plan and the phone wasn’t that bad at all about 150 bucks.

I ended up with the LG Optimus and couldn’t be happier.  What I love about it is will be easier for me to take pics of workouts and such unlike before because my camera sucked on my old phone.  It’s not too shabby on this one.

So I’m excited.

Oh so weight, as of today I am where I was on Thursday and Friday so I guess that’s pretty okay.  I am thinking I might be able to get back down to what I was the week before last.

Which if I am right should put me at a loss.  I have had to realize if I can only lose one week of the month that I need to make that week count and then do the best I can the rest of the month.

If my theory is correct it should work something like this…. Week 1 I lost 5.8lbs week 2-3 I gain up to 10lbs week 4 AF arrives and I go back to my low weight which puts me at a 5.78lb loss for the month.

Now if I am smart that means when the next month starts I give it my all and I lose again say I lose 3lbs that week.  Then week 2-3 I gain than AF comes week 4 I go back to that low weight which brings me to a 3lb loss for that month but a 8.8 loss for the two months.

Hope that makes sense.  I think before I got so discouraged that I lost ONLY one week a month when in reality usually those weeks were pretty decent losses.  IF I would just keep at it I think I can lose weight loss over time.

Again this is all in theory.  We shall see on week 5 🙂 So until then 🙂

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Why do we continue to judge and assume?

22 Sunday Sep 2013

Posted by Misty in weight loss

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tumblr_lrcs73ExRO1r32ioro1_400I have noticed over the years how quickly 1.  We as humans tend to assume and judge others A LOT and 2. We think we know how to fix everyone’s weight issues.

Let’s compare those who can’t gain vs those who can’t lose.

Those who are thin are judged and told they don’t eat enough, have an eating disorder, are sick, unhealthy and I am sure many more mean things.  I call this just flat out ignorance.  It’s like telling a person who can’t gain weight to “just eat more”.

It’s because we logically believe calories in vs calories out.  We think that if you want to lose weight ALL you do is eat less and if you want to gain weight ALL you do is eat more.

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But this couldn’t be further from the truth for some people.  While yes, some people are small because they are not eating enough, they do have an eating disorder, they are sick or maybe they are just unhealthy at the same time there are some who struggle with weight loss and don’t have these problems.  Same can go for those who are overweight.

Their problems is something is wrong with their body.  Some have a thyroid issue called hyperthyroid.  Others have metabolic issues where they body burns at a super fast rate.  Or they are on a medication that is causing weight loss.  While, many would say “you’re lucky” this is a very serious problem and the person feels far from “lucky”.

Weight gain is the same thing in fact the same EXACT reasons…. A person who gains weight quickly could have thyroid issues known as hypothyroid.  They can have metabolic issues which causes them to burn at a much slower rate, they could be on medications that cause weight gain.  In addition they could be on birth control or be insulin resistance and much more.

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It’s interesting how the medical community and those around us treat each one differently and yet both can have very legit medical issues.  Imagine how many people you have quickly judged based upon their appearance?

How many have you looked at and said they were too skinny, they needed to eat, they look sick or they are lucky?

How many people have you seen that are over weight and thought how they eat too much, must eat tons of junk food,  they are disgusting or don’t care about themselves?

I believe we are all human and yes, we are all guilty at one time or another to judge others.  I just wish sometimes we would just get our head out of our asses and stop thinking we know everything about everyone!

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People think that “I did it so can you!” but the thing is it’s not that simple for everyone.  Our bodies are all different.  Every single one is unique.  So why do we lump every one in one tiny mold?

Why do we think it’s okay to look at someone and think we know them?  We know why they face the problems they face?  And know exactly how to fix them when we have never even walked a mile in their shoes.

Why do we feel a need to make one against the other.  Fit vs Fat vs Skinny.  We talk about healthy but sometimes I wonder do we really know what HEALTHY looks like? Do we really even know what FIT looks like?

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It’s like everyone has a PHD and those with PHD’s must know everything.  The thing is we don’t.  Look at how much things have changed over the years.  How many things we thought were okay but was not?  How many were misdiagnosed?

It’s quite sad really!  Maybe, just maybe instead of making rash judgments and assumptions talk to people.  HEAR them.  Listen to what they are going through.  Don’t compare them to your friends, family members, or neighbor down the street.

Thing about how your words are discouraging to someone and hurtful.  Think about how you would feel if someone was assuming or judging you.  I live my life and try to think frequently how would I feel about this in reverse.  Sometimes I think we need to open our eyes and just take a moment to accept the possibility of being wrong.
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It’s FRIDAY

20 Friday Sep 2013

Posted by Misty in weight loss

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woot woot! Man, I don’t know about you but this week has seemed super long for me.  So as of today I am up 3.4lb’s from last Friday.  Now, this is no shock because PMS time is here and I ALWAYS gain.

At first I was annoyed (like usual) because I hate seeing gains but then realized today that it’s only a 3.4 gain so far isn’t so bad.  Especially when I have gone up over 10lbs at this time of the month.

So I would call that progress.  I vow to just keep going with plan and see how this all works out.

Today, I am SUPER sore.  I really stepped it up in class yesterday and OMG I feel it today.  Not to mention but I am super tired today I hate fatigue.  Not to mention tomorrow is my son’s Birthday AND Birthday Party (he is super excited!).

I am excited for him.  He is turning the big 1-0 🙂 So this weekend I have to try to be really good since we are having a cook out.  I plan to have plenty of veggies so that will be great! I know I got this!

So what are your weekend plans?

Oh and because it’s Friday I thought I would throw in a funny… It’s Taye Diggs talking about what it’s like to be sexy it’s short but oh so funny.  I bust out laughing everytime I see it.  Love you Taye!

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Assessment done!

18 Wednesday Sep 2013

Posted by Misty in weight loss

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bootcamp, exercise, fat girl, gym, Lose Weight, Personal Trainer, Weight loss, working out

So D and I went tonight to do our assessment.  It was going to consist of a talk and some work out but we actually ended up talking the whole time.

Basically, the trainer really wanted to get a feel for the group.  He wanted to see where everyone was and what changes they needed to make in the class to make sure everyone is being challenged.

We talked about my health issues, some modifications to some work outs and about the class in general of what we would like.

He brought up that from the first day I was there until now he has noticed there were things I could not do that now I can do with ease.  He said when I come I work 🙂

I talked briefly on what I need from him as a trainer.  All in all I think it went pretty well.  We didn’t work out tonight at all.  After the meeting I had to pick up my daughter and my knee was a bit swollen from yesterday so I am going to ice it and let it rest.

Tomorrow is class again and he said tomorrow we are going to WORK! (he says this every class though lol).  But he had that look like yeah, you gonna wish we you didn’t say you needed some challenges…. Ugh.

But hey I’m not in the class to do nothing.  I am here for results which I am getting so hey.  As James says “Let’s Work!” 🙂

 

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Positive Thoughts

18 Wednesday Sep 2013

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So tonight will be my assessment at the gym.  I’m not as worried now about not getting in for I don’t forsee them excluding someone unless I guess they have something pretty serious going on.

I think the main thing is to see where everyone is at so they can get an idea on what exercises to do.  So far he said by the assessments it seems he isn’t pushing us enough (oh lord!).

I am so sore today so I am not expecting greatness from myself today but he knows I have been busting my butt the last two days.  By day 3 we are pretty tired.  I can just imagine how I will feel tomorrow lol.

I hoped to really be able to do the C25K with this but time and issues with my knee’s are working against me.  This weekend I had to rest them one seemed to get a bit of a fluid pocket (felt so gross btw).

Either way I figure if I need I will walk more than run for the 5K in November but there is still plenty of time plus we run every class too and lots of cardio so it’s not like I’m not getting any cardio in at all.  We do quiet a bit of cardio in class.

I’m not worried either way.  I will let you guys know tomorrow how the assessment went.

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Breakthrough Maybe?

17 Tuesday Sep 2013

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bootcamp, fat girl, Gluten Free, gym exercise, inspiration, low carb, ovulation, paleo, working out

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So a few changes happened this month 1. I started eating smaller meals throughout the day and logging them into my fitness pal again 2. I kicked things up at bootcamp (well, they did) I started making sure I went to every class and 3. I got off my water pills (not on purpose have to wait to see doc).

Now I have tracked my weight pretty well through the past 2 years (except the one month I didn’t weigh but I still weighed in a couple of times that month).  One thing that ran true is every single month I always gained and continued to gain once I ovulate.

Like normal, on Sunday I went up (still below my “starting weight” that I started with last week).  Today I am at what I was on Thursday which if things continue I may actually continue to lose (normally remember, I gain).  Now, only one month did I do something like this but by the second week is where I steadily gained.

So, I’m not out of the woods yet.  But, I think it’s a good sign I am seeing body results, results on the scale despite being off the water pills.  Before, I couldn’t lose at all with out them.   Only time of course will tell.  So I am just requiring myself to continue on.

Wednesday is my assessment with the gym trainer.  I don’t think they are going to actually kick anyone out of the class.  What I think they are going to do is put people in groups.  He was pretty upset that people had some serious health issues and never spoke up.  He said to avoid injuries he needs to know these things (which I do agree).

But he did see apparently that he can kick up boot camp even more (oh, joy!).  I said that sarcastically lol.  Eh, as long as it works I am game.  I did pretty well I think yesterday.  I got to 51 straight jumping jacks my highest last week was 45.  So that’s improvement.  Almost to a 100 🙂

I’ll let you guys know how the assessment goes.  D and I are doing ours together after he gets off of work.  I really hope they keep us in a team I work better with him by myside.  Well, see….. 🙂

 

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They Can’t Take Away Bootcamp!!!!

16 Monday Sep 2013

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300lbs, bootcamp, fat girl, over weight, Weight loss

I have been kind of quiet about this because I didn’t want to worry for nothing.  On Thursday our bootcamp instructor told us that they are about to rev up the bootcamp class.

We are talking things like tire flipping and working outside.  It’s going to get much more intense than it currently is now.  Which, I won’t lie some days this class is pretty intense for me.

They said that each one of us will have to have an assessment done that will determine if we can stay in the class and proceed.  This worries me.  I am one of the heaviest girl in the class.  Infact I think I AM the heaviest regular in the class.

I feel like this makes me a liability.  They are talking like we have to sign waiver forms and all that jazz.

I’m worried they will find me too unfit to do the class and I won’t be able to do it anymore.  What upsets me the most is this class is WHY I go to the gym now.  I can’t stand the idea of the machines anymore.

I like what I do.  I love that my hair is drenched in sweat after each class.  That I can see muscles I haven’t seen before and how I can really feel what I worked out on the very next day.

I like the challenge of the class and being able to beat previous days I was there.

Even though the class is hard and some days I think “man, I should have stayed home” by the end of the class I am ALWAYS glad I went.  Never, not once have I went and thought “eh” like I had before working out on my own.

I love having others working with me and I love working out with D.

It would be so unfair if they took this away from me and didn’t offer a class then for those who may not be ready for such an intense class.  Especially, since their site says nothing about you having to be approved to do any of the classes.

D says I am worrying for nothing.  He feels I have proven myself as a fighter in the class.  How I come in almost every class and I work.  How I do more than some of the other girls there and yet I am probably twice their size.

He said the fact I am twice their size and doing it shows my dedication because he too knows how hard it is to do even the most simple exercises at about 300lbs.  I just get scared to hear some of you won’t make it.

I feel like it’s directed right at me.  The fact is there are some exercises I probably shouldn’t be doing that could cause me to risk more injuries but that can be said about anyone of any size in m opinion.  Injuries happen to the healthiest of people.

So why exclude me?  If anything why not just find a modification if possible?  Why does it have to be all or nothing?  Anyways.  Today we will go and schedule our assessment and go from there.

In the mean time please pray that I will get to continue on with this.  I really do enjoy it and would like to keep being able to benefit from the class.

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I’ve got muscle!!!!

13 Friday Sep 2013

Posted by Misty in weight loss

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bootcamp, fat girl, fitness, muscles, Weight loss

So those who may not be a fan already to my Facebook Fan page I had a new discovery today.  So, I was in the bathroom investigating a bug bite I got the night before last that STILL itches.  I was trying all the things to make it stop with zero success.

As I am examining my arm I see this bump by my pits.  I kind of start to freak out a bit.  It was hard and I have never seen this bump on my arms before.  I stare and poke at it for like 5 minutes and then I inspect the other arm.  WTH?  There is one there too.

I look into the mirror and flex and this was the moment I felt like a big freaking idiot. I was my MUSCLES!  I kept flexing in the mirror in awe.  I figured I would have to lose a lot of arm fat to see those.  While I have a lot of hanging blah arm fat I can totally see my new muscles.ARMS

Let me say before (and I so wish I had a pic) I had the most depressing looking arm muscles if you even want to call them that.  But today, oh yeah, I have some!  So excited.  Just shows that bootcamp is totally paying off and I guess I won’t curse *as much* in my head at the instructor when we do jumping jacks with the weights.  Or when we have to do exercises raising the weights over and over again for several minutes to the point  my arms feel like jello.

I’m so excited to see some other type of progress.  Oh and to the itch did you know heat helps take away the itch?  20 seconds with a hair dryer and it’s not itching.  Yay!

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